Admission

Okay - so here I am admitting that everyone was right - about how much life was going to change once we had a baby. I am flabbergasted at how different things are, how much I have changed! Jordan has made me into a different person altogether. When consciousness comes to me in the middle of the night, or in the morning, the first inkling of a thought is of her - feeling her warm little body snuggled into my chest, her little legs draped over my thigh... She makes it incredibly difficult for me to get out of the bed in the morning! Our morning routine doesn't change, no matter how loudly my bladder screams at me, I will change Jordan's wet diaper before relieving myself - even if I have to dance a little, from one foot to the next while standing at the changing table... :) The way she waits for me to open the car door when we pull into the parking spot at daycare, and when it happens, she flashes me the biggest smile - I may as well melt into a puddle on the sidewalk. And at the end of the day, I can't wait to go get her - to hear her squeal and giggle, and reach out her arms for me when I walk into her classroom - I'm mush once again... This girl has become my whole life - my reason for doing everything that I do. How is that possible??? Well, it was something that i couldn't fathom, and that no one can ever explain to another soul - but I get it now.

Now that she is 6 months old, things are changing so fast! She has a tooth poking out of her gums (much to her dismay, poor little girl). She is eating solids like it is going out of style. And she is now sitting up! I still have to make sure that she has something to tumble back on, but she really has it down! I can hardly believe it, to see my little baby, sitting on her bum, like she is a big girl or something! :)

The concept of time has truly changed for me. While on the one hand, it took FOREVER to get to this point, where things are a little easier, or I am more conditioned, whichever the case - on the other hand, things are also happening to quickly! I've got to hang on to these moments, these milestones - because once they happen, they are gone, they become old hat, and it's on to the next - so fast!

Hmmm... sort of a scatterbrained post... I think that this must come with the territory. :)